I have reevaluated everything about myself because of you.
I have analyzed the good, the bad, the ugly and the conclusion I've come to is that even if my bettering myself doesn't directly impact you, I'm so grateful you played a part in this process.
You wrote to me when I least expected it.
You made me feel important... special.
You gave me hope.
You gave me something to look forward to.
You also brought out my insecurities; I thought about what it would be like to meet you, and the negative, self-conscious me thought you would be so disappointed to meet me.
I worried I wouldn't live up to your image of me.
Each night, I've wanted to talk to you; to learn more about you.
I've seen your face a million times and doubt you've seen mine nearly as much.
It has been your face that has been motivating me; driving me to go forward, even when it feels impossible.
I want to be my best self for you, but the truth is, I don't even really know you...
I guess I don't even fully know myself.
But I'm getting there.
Baby steps...
One day, one hour, one minute, one second at a time...
In the end, we will probably never meet, never talk face-to-face; never have a relationship.
We'll go our own ways, pursue our careers, date other people.
But, I think I'll never forget you, as crazy as that may sound.
I'll never forget how your contacting me changed me forever.
I'm not the same person I was those months ago when you first entered my life and I'm beyond happy about that.
I feel different... more hopeful somehow, like the world really is my oyster. My life is a blank canvas awaiting an artistic masterpiece to be revealed on it!
I can do anything! I'm in the biggest metamorphosis of my life.
I'm learning to love myself and I think that's the first step to ever giving my heart to someone else.
If only you knew how much I attribute that progress to you.
Thank you for that.
