JusT ThinkinG... (9/11/09)

I haven't written in a while and right now seems as good a time as any. I have been thinking a lot about life and where mine is headed. I feel so uncertain about so many things. I know what I am planning to do for a career, but the thought of actually doing what I've been working towards seems really scary. I feel like Peter Pan in that I don't think I'm ready to grow up. I still feel like that 16-year-old girl in high school, who had the whole world ahead of her. I feel like people don't prepare you enough to know how fast life goes. One minute you're a teenager. The next, you're an adult wondering where the time went.

The only thing that comforts me is the knowledge that I have a Heavenly Father who is omnipotent- who knows me inside and out. He knows me better than I know myself. He is there- waiting for me to come to Him and put my trust in Him. I am His precious daughter and He has entrusted me to do a great work for Him on this earth. I have the ability to be His hands in aiding His children; my brothers and sisters.

If I don't "seize the day," as Carpe Diem so wisely points out, I will waste my life... It isn't death that should be feared, but rather a life without meaning; a life that is devoid of passion, happiness, sadness, trials, success, and failures that should be feared. This idea comes from a quote that I love from Tuck Everlasting which says, "Don't be afraid of death. Be afraid of the unlived life." I hope I can make these words come true in my life by making it one that will count. I have but one life to live. (I think I've heard that before somewhere. Soap opera much)?!